heart / mind
Do you trust God? I'm learning...
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean not on your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5
I know it's a common verse, but let's talk through it for a minute.
I had a moment a few months ago where I thought God was asking me to physically trust him with my heart instead of my mind.
I always gloss over the part that says to trust God with my heart. Have you ever thought about it? Like, how do we do that?
As someone who has been over-blessed burdened with working through anxiety most of my life, trusting with my heart isn’t something that comes naturally for me. I trust with my mind. My mind is reliable. I can think my way to safety. I can navigate all the different paths ahead and I can take the one that I think will lead me to something safe — good — right.
Well, as I was mediating on this verse, somehow trust physically transferred from my mind to my heart. I could literally feel the worry being lifted off of my mind and freedom given to my heart. I can't explain it to you in words how this happened. It was supernatural.
I began thinking with my heart. Believing with my heart. I felt stronger than I ever had in my life. I’m not kidding. I was fortified.
And then I had a vision. I was standing alone in the middle of a field and I saw massive sections of a wall begin to come up from the ground. One by one, they rose and created a fortress around me. I turned in a circle and watched as I saw the wall completely formed. I was protected. Surrounded.
I felt empowered. I felt safe. I was free. Free to run around in the land that God had placed me in.
I started thinking about what I had just seen and what it meant and I immediately saw the walls crash to the ground. I was left standing alone without any protection. I was immediately on guard. I had to protect myself again.
When we trust in our own understanding, we have to be the soldier on guard. We have to be the one to protect our heart. We have to watch out for all the ways that we could be hurt.
But when we trust with our heart, we get to be free. We get to trust God with all of the circumstances and people around us; believing that even if an enemy climbs over the wall and gets through, God’s got us -- through eternity.
I cannot exactly explain how we get here, trusting with our heart, but I know it’s the right place to be. Every moment of every day.
So will you join me in asking God to help you trust with your heart and not your mind? Let’s see what God does.